I am always enjoy finding new products, but I'm the type where I've probably been thinking about what I've wanting for a while already. Especially, when it comes to makeup. With stores like Sephora, they make it easy to try on and test out different eyeliners or foundations. If you're anything like me then you probably just want to know if the thing you are about to spend a pretty penny on is actually worth it. 

I recently received a few complimentary products for testing purposes. I also want to let you know that these are my honest opinions. I would never want to sway you towards something if I didn't believe in it, however, you don't have to take my word for it- try it out for yourself and see whatcha think!

Products:

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One of the trends that you will be seeing this winter is this metallics, like the dress I'm wearing. Metallics are making their way in different pieces: metallic pumps, sequin minis, shiny slip dresses, and other ways! If you want to try this trend for yourself, maybe switch up your nude pumps for metallic ones, or wearing mini instead, or even find some key pieces for your wardrobe that will be versatile for your everyday life.

I was one of the influencers that was feature in the Denver area for Denver Fashion Week that started on Thursday. Go check out the article HERE.

Outfit Details: Dress- Zara // Heels- Steve Madden (similar) // Choker- Anthropologie // Jacket- F21 (old) 

I remember the first couple of days when we first brought Ryan-Kate home. It was so foreign being a "mother." Saying the words out loud felt like it was more for my sake than for anyone else. Friends and family came in and out helping with meals, the home, and the new life adjustment. I felt like I was getting ahold of life and being a parent (minus being tired). I painted the majority of the house in-between naps. I even came back to work 6 weeks into my 12 week maternity leave. But then the meals stopped coming, and the family members stopped visiting, and I realized it was just me and baby at home. The realization that this tiny baby was my full responsibility was finally setting in

And that terrified me.

Slowly, I felt my fear creeping in other areas of my life. Work became overwhelming, I couldn't make simple decisions, and I constantly felt like I was drowning. At home, I would just cry and cry because I was so frustrated at myself for what I was feeling. I felt broken, like I was losing my function. 

After a few months of this, I started to look up postpartum depression, and wept when I read somethings, because it felt like I could finally pinpoint what I had been feeling for some time. I felt guilty for what I was going through and didn't know how to ask for help. I just knew that I couldn't do  what I was doing anymore.

Life moves in seasons, and in this season my capacity was different. I realized that I was trying to do life in the same capacity that I once had before Ryan-Kate. She was never the problem, my striving for perfection was always the problem. Now I write a some things on my list that I want to accomplish and I pick two or three. 

And I'm finally okay with that.

I talked with Andrew, I reevaluated my priorities, I humbled myself and adjusted my capacity, and most importantly, I went to the only person who could save me from myself. My relationship with Jesus had to come first, because I wasn't fighting for it, I was running on empty.  Now, my devotions look a little different these days with a 10-month old, but thats life. And I have learned more about the Father's love in this season than I ever did single. It is a new level of vastness that I didn't know I could experience and I wouldn't change that.

Outfit details: Turtleneck- Target // Pants- Madewell (similar) // Shoes- Calvin Klein (similar)